02 Mar Self-Reflection
I can tell when something’s just not right. And, right now. Something’s just not right.
How can I tell? My heart is racing, my stomach is turning, and there’s a bubble in my throat that makes it difficult for me to breathe. Have you ever felt nauseous in your throat? Almost like, you’ve done something terrible, but you don’t know what it is?
That’s how I feel right now. That’s what my anxiety feels like. And, a lot of the time I don’t know why.
People closest to me know that I was diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) in the 6th grade, and have struggled with this disease for most of my life. I’ve gone off and on medications, tried countless alternative methods, and have been in and out of therapy.
So, why this moment? I don’t actually know. It just comes and goes.
I have periods of high anxiety, because I’m a highly sensitive and over-analytical person. Wow, I admitted it. I am sensitive and I over think everything way to much. BUT here’s the thing:
Being overly “sensitive” is a gift, even if most people don’t agree.
Being a sensitive person doesn’t just mean that I feel my emotions intensely; It means that I feel other peoples emotions intensely too. Sometimes my anxiety has absolutely nothing to do with me, but I still experience the physical symptoms. Understanding ourselves and practicing self reflection is such a critical piece in our human development.